Different kinds of Psychotherapy? Why is it so disappointing?

Psychiatrists deal with mental illness. Psychotherapists deal with talking out issues. You aren't mentally ill. Your problem doesn't sound like it's based in any physical condition. As Judy & Charlie said, you aren't hearing what you want to from any mental health professional, and you are denying that they could be right. You have to want to accept therapy before it can help you. You have issues that need to be talked out, not medicated, but you have to be honest with your therapist about how you feel.